Random thoughts

It's been a while since I last opened this blog. I've been very busy making friends and working my ass off to pay off my bills. However it's a new year and I've decided to use this blog whenever I can( like anyone would actually care about what I post here LOL😂).

Time check 2:27am. I wanted to wake up at 5am so I can go to gym but yeah not gonna happen 😒. I don't even know why I'm still up 😁. Anyways, I wanted to start a new life. I wanted to live my life and finally step out of my shell. I've been trying to tell my parents about me being gay last year, but I couldn't find the perfect timing. I am also worried of how would they react if I tell them about me being gay.

January first, I finally told my older brother that I'm gay. He's totally cool with it which made me happy. I am hoping that one day I would have the guts to tell my parents, But I am happy now because I know my brother would be there and support me if I tell my mom and dad.

Happy new year 💓

Fall is coming

Hey everyone. I hope everyone is doing great and enjoying their weekend.

It's almost fall. Do you have any outfit planned for this coming season? If not, here's one of my favourite look for fall season that you might like.


Blazer from H&M
Denim Pants from H&M
Tank Top from H&M

One of my favourite looks from fall season is the denim. You can never go wrong with denim pants.
Paired with tank top and a blazer from H&M. This look is amazing and I'm digging it.

 Hype my look on Lookbook
http://lookbook.nu/look/4866337-H&M-Blazer-Tank-Top-Gap-Pants-Aldo-Montano-Shoes

Beast

BEAST

One of my favourite outfit during the fall season.

My outfit was on point and I am feeling it!

As what I've told you I don't shop and buy expensive clothes. I like to budget myself and sometimes play with my old clothes that I never use. 

My beanie is from Aldo. Sunglasses from thriftstore at Kensington Market here in Toronto. 

My jacket is from Black Market. This place is the deal! All clothes are 10 dollars only. If you like thrift shopping, I recommend this Store. Located in downtown Toronto at john street and queen.

BEAST tank top is from Urban Behaviour and my pants is from H&M which i cut it myself.

Wearing boots from Kensington Market. I got it for 35 bucks, its a pretty good deal. This boots are really cool. I like how its all black which you can wear with any clothes you like. But I must say that these boots are heavy, But its worth buying!

Hype my look on LookBook 

http://lookbook.nu/look/6191353-Aldo-Beanie-H&M-Ripped-Jeans-Dyi-Come-Back-Home

Winter2014

Hey guys. Haven't posted in awhile.

Here's a throwback look for you guys. Just in case you haven't check out my lookbook page yet, the link is at the bottom.

Hope everyone is well and Happy monday guys!

These photos were taken last year during Winter 2014 in Toronto.

Hype my look on lookbook

http://lookbook.nu/look/6129567-Aldo-Beanie-H&M-Leather-Jacket-Tuk-Shoes-One-More-Try

Photography

A friend of mine posing for the camera.

Met this guy from a friend, his name is Alex from Chile. He told me he likes to get photograph, so we decided to take photos of him and play with my camera. Its been awhile since I take pictures with people. I don't do it often because I'm not very good at it. But since Alex is a friend I said why not.

Here are some of my shots with Alex.

Just a touch of green

 

 Lets talk about my new obsession with colourful socks.

Colourful socks aren't really my thing few years ago. But hey, Its 2015 now and fashion is really a big thing. You won't get notice if you're boring, so I said let me try and put a touch of colour in my style.

This socks I'm wearing is from H&M for a cheap price. I bought a couple of them so watch out for me rocking more socks this summer.!

This pair of creepers is actually my favourite shoe this summer. I bought this for only 20 bucks.It was BARGAIN! I was so happy when I bought this pair. I have another pair of this shoe but its only a 1 and 1/2 inch and this pair is actually taller. Its very comfortable and very stylish.

Wearing my OVO white WOES hat and a leather shopping bag from F21.

White tank top from Urban Outfitters and my pants is from Uniqlo I bought from japan I bought 3 months ago.

Hype my look on lookbook

http://lookbook.nu/look/7647386-H&M-Socks-Tuk-Footwear-Creepers-Ovo-Woes-Street-Look

It was a good feeling for awhile.

It was a good feeling for awhile.

I've been single for like half a year now and yes I do miss being in a relationship. But there's something in me that keep backing out to find the one. I feel like I am so ready, But I don't want to be committed with someone, Yet I still want a serious relationship. 

I've been thinking what is wrong with me. Why am I feeling this way? I am scared that if I find someone it'll be gone that quick and I'll end up crying again?  Am I scared to hurt someone because I don't feel the same way as they feel towards me? Do I really just want sex? But if I do, why am I scared to have fun and with other single fellas out there? 

I like to think that I want to be in a relationship, But I don't (this feeling sucks I don't really know what I want).

One night I went to this online dating website were I met my ex. Its been a year since I was online and I said why not. I was clicking profiles but I couldn't match with someone I like. I talk to different people but none of them interests me. So I guess I'll go back to sleep. After a minute, I got a notification from someone who viewed my profile. I wasn't going to open it, But I received a message from that person. Filipino ahhhhhh. I hate dating flips. I have been with 3 flips and they all have the same habit that irritates me so much. Being DRAMATIC.! Yes flips are so dramatic, even me myself and I'm tired of drama. Oh well lets go back to that person who messaged me. 

We talked for like a hour exchanging messages getting to know each other and then we followed each other on Instagram and Facebook. After that night we didn't talk anymore. Days and weeks have gone by and nothing, never heard of you.

 After long period of time that we didn't talk I saw you on Facebook. You posted a picture of you and his friends. I said why not say hi. That day we talked again, and then we decided to meet up and watch a movie. Oh by the way I hate movies when meeting up with strangers. Its were everything happens(making out, jacking off, blowjobs).Thats what people do. Oh hey I don't go that far so don't think that I actually do those stuff in the cinema. Anyways, I just hate movies with a stranger. 

Tuesday, we met downtown for a movie. Damn you were late. I hate when people are always filipino time (when you set a time to meet up and show up an hour late or longer). Thats how filipinos are. Well not all. We watched magic mike XXL. I was pretty much paying attention to the movie the whole time so we didn't talk a lot. Yes nothing happened haha.

After the movie we went to eat. That is where both of us started talking. you have a good voice, you're a dancer and also you're nice and funny. It was a long night and I had fun chilling with you. It's been forever since I went out on a date and I must say It was a well day spent. We said goodbye and went separate ways. I don't know when will I see you again But whatever.

We've been talking on the phone and texting since that day. I like talking to you But I don't feel it yet. I don't wanna rush things and tell you I like you if I wasn't sure how I feel towards you. I don't do that. Thats like the worst feeling ever. When you tell someone you like them but you're not really sure. I don't wanna be with the person you don't really like and you'll have to let yourself learn how to love them. It's not right. Well anyways. I don't know what I'm saying but you get my point. Don't tell someone you like him or her unless you mean it.

You've been saying you miss me and you wanna see me. Isn't it too fast? I miss you too but I don't wanna tell you how I feel right now. 

It's been weeks and were still talking. But I still think Its too fast to go on to the next level.

It was your birthday July 14. We went out for a drink and celebrated your birthday. That night there was an AX event happening at the fly night club. I wasn't going to go but my friend invited me and your friends invited you too.We decided to go and said we'll meet each other inside.

11pm we arrived at the club you were there with your friends and you introduce me with them and I introduced you to mine. After a minute you grabbed my hands and pulled me with you near an empty space. You pushed me against the wall and you tried to kiss me. It was that moment I told my self no. Not right now. I don't want too happen everything too fast and then I said lets go back to your friends. We went back and I went to dance and drink with my friends. We were drinking, while you're dancing when my friend pulled me and told me"Hey wasn't that you're date awhile ago?". My friends were laughing at me. I pretended I was laughing when I saw you making out with your friend. I was mad. I was jealous. That night I didn't talk to you. You kept calling me, But I didn't answer. 

Am I too slow? Were you tired of waiting for me? It's not even a month and now you're acting like you've been waiting for me forever and you couldn't wait thats why you made out with some random guy? It was that moment I almost fall for you, But thank God I did not.

I told you what happened and you were sorry. I didn't feel the same way after that. But you didn't stop. You wanted a second chance. I said we can try as friends for now. I honestly felt really bad for myself. I thought you're the one, But I guess I'm wrong. But how am I supposed to look at you the way I used to?

After what happened we became friends. We hangout, we go eat, we walk around downtown. But you still want me. You want me in your life, But idk anymore. 

Why cant you just take everything slow.